Mask or Menace ☂ IC Phone Post

[numberthree]

INBOX Voice | Text | Call | Video | Surprise Me A flat computer automated voice comes on and states in monotone: "This is the voicemail box for Allison Hargreeves. Leave a message at the beep."

Luther

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[numberthree]

"Of course." There's some sympathy in her expression for listening to Luther list all those things out. She disagrees with the phrasing and assumptions of some of them as he puts them, but she's had to think of it—vastly more than he has.

"Becoming someone's mom does that." It makes you think about your own parents, theirs. She glances that topic, only skimming the surface with the edges of the wings of her point, refusing to let it land or soak through. "But so did being pulled into Patrick's family gatherings. Claire, being spoiled by his parents."

In a way, that was normal now, but it had been so baffling at first. Always needing to find some excuse for why Claire didn't know or hear from her parents, or any of her Aunts and Uncles. The way it'd been easiest with Luther on the moon, but that left some six other people to make excuses for more and more as Claire got older.

"The same with Vernetta's family basically adopting me in the first year. And Ray's--" --coming in for the wedding, but she doesn't say those words, instead, easily and smoothly making it. "--having long winding phone calls at all the holidays and birthdays."

It was a world she understood, even if she never felt more than half in it.
And she understood what it felt like for Luther, staring at it all from the outside.

[obediences]

"Yeah, makes sense."

Claire, Patrick, Vernetta, Ray. She's had so much more experience than any of the rest of them with the rituals and trappings of a normal life, and actual families. Which of course elicits that creeping, nagging thought: Who the hell is he to say that she can't have a normal life? How is that any of his business?

But.
They'd all seen how that had ended, and where it had gone.

Luther can't even really remember where he was going with this, finds himself lost for whatever he was about to say next. It mostly just happens with Allison, where the topic always meanders and roams like this, skidding unpredictably along like a boat bobbing along on a stream. He could ask her if she'd ever tried to find her birth mother like Diego had tried with his — but it all feels monumentally irrelevant now, even more than it did when they were in the right universe for it.

"At least the three of us can put together some kind of Thanksgiving thing. Later this month."

Endish for now, or yours to end?

[numberthree]

Allison nods, a little absently. Memories of the two Thanksgiving before it, blurring into the realization she and Ray hadn't even gotten to the first one that would have been just theirs. The oddest facts that just presented themselves to her, unthought and unconsidered, until a domino made it fall out.

It's not worth saying out loud; she knows that.
It would be awkward, especially with what Luther knows now.
What she did. She broke the scale of deserving to mourn those things.

Instead, she lets it wind the direction Luther originally shifted it, after asking her to think of families had and families she wasn't allowed to have (and the daughter she would do anything not to let go of, and yet had buried deeper than a single whisper). To the last here, again, dramatic, but at least they'd been together. She really would take the one for the other, if they would just appear again. Even cancel the whole dinner if that was the only small price. But.

"It'll be smaller. But we'll manage."